Secrets

How ironic; to die in a living room. I remember the room, almost as if it was yesterday. The taste of pain still lingers in my mouth. As I walk in, gear in hand; I see the blood. No; I tasted it. The heavy iron searing my taste buds. I remember the gun. Wrapped around…

Sober and Sleepless

I don’t want to take any meds today. I shouldn’t need them… it’s just sleep. I want to drink… but I can’t 9PM It’s time to sleep. I tell myself Yet nothing comes. It’s time to sleep. I tell myself Pulling the covers over my shoulders, Turning off the tv and leaving the phone to…

Choose

It’s a nice day outside, people are laughing; walking by without a care in the world. I’m sitting at a bar with a drink in my hand, hoping that the answers just come to me. Maybe not the answers. Maybe just the right words to convince her that it’s not as bad as it is….

True colors

You see someone’s true colors when you are no longer beneficial in their life I didn’t know what was happening to us until it happened. Long nights crying, helping you, protecting you, choosing you; when knowing deep down you wouldn’t do the same for me. You tried, I saw you trying. But you only tried…

Who Would You Choose?

It’s a nice day outside. People are laughing; walking by without a care in the world. I’m sitting at a bar with a drink in my hand, hoping that the answers just come to me. Maybe not the answers. Maybe just the right words to convince her that it’s not as bad as it is….

I Just Want To Know

I just want to know that I was important to you, because you were to me. I just want to know that I meant something to you, because you meant everything to me. I just want to know if your heart breaks when you see a photo of me, or if your heart skips a…

The Moment

I was working in the pediatric emergency room that night. We had gotten a call earlier of a patient coming in who was found unconscious  in the bathtub. 10 years old, a child, a firefighters child; and the worst part? the dad responded to that call. The patient suffered from a history of seizures and…